take a long walk...

off a short fuckin pier.

thats what i want to tell him. 

one of my BFF's for the last 20 years wants to go to Vegas for her 30th in April.  she's invited me and Mr. Man to join her & her hubby & two other couples. 

I SOOOOOOOOOOOO WANT TO GO.

hes kind of being a dick about it though. 

see, he goes to vegas every year with his brother & another friend.  theyve gone like every year for like 18 years or some shit. 

i, however, NEVER go ANYwhere.  ANYWHERE. 

ive been asking him to take me to vegas, just for a couple of days, for monnnnnnnnnths. 

i asked him again the other day.  he, instead, tells me if i have X amount of dollars, he will cash in his frequent flyer miles and send my kids & i to disney.  JUST my kids and me.  NOT HIM.

WTF asshat???? 

now, i tell him that i want us to go to vegas with my girl & the crew for the bday celebration. 

he got suuuuuuuuuuuper pissy with me about it. 

"see, ive been to vegas once or twice" he says "and when you go with groups like that, it just sucks"

im all.........um, we dont have to be with the GROUP the whole fucking time.  we can go and DO things.  you know TOGETHER????? 

and hes like, we'll talk about it. 

fuck talk.  book the tickets & the fucking room. 

am i wrong if i go without him?  yes, ill be the only one stag.  but, WTF?  i cannot sit here forever waiting for him to want to fucking do something that I want to do....  right??!?!?!?!?

help me out here..... 

if you were in my position, would you go without him? 

apparently im old and no effing fun, but i dont really give a rats ass ;)

is it wrong that I want to celebrate at MY home for NYE??????

i do not want to pack up myself and 2 children to go spend the night over at Mr. Man's sisters house.  on the couch, or the floor, or whatever tiny uncomfortable space they find for me.

im not sure why this is such a fucking problem, but apparently, it is. 

too bad, i invited friends to my house.  thats where im spending the evening.

i work all day that day. 

i do not want to go home, rush around just to drive 45 minutes back the other direction to go stay there. 

sorry, i suck like that. 

so, now i have no idea if i am kissing Mr. Man at midnight or not, but I do know that when i get ready to pass out into an alcohol induced slumber, it WILL BE in my bed, in my house. 


anyway, im gonna have lots of fun & drunken times tomorrow night, and i wish all the same for the rest of you.... 

as some unknown source says, "I don’t understand the purpose of the line, “I don’t need to drink to have fun.” Great, no one does. But why start a fire with flint and sticks when they’ve invented the lighter???"

amen!

and cheers to you all!!!!!!!!

HAPPY EFFIN NEW YEAR!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

man-eater...

ive been dating my boyfriend for like 3 and a half years.

it started off beautifully. but now, not so much.

i let him embed himself in my life & my kids' lives. thinking that he would step up to the plate and be man and make full commitment to me & them - to be a husband and a father.

but, now, im not thinking so.

we've argued about it, and im tired of arguing.

im bitter.

im a bitch.

and it just grates on my nerves all the time.

how can you sit there and "act" like a dad, but yet not be willing to actually make a commitment to these 2 kids that you CLAIM to love?

WTF????

im thinking that im about to pull the plug on the whole operation.

im tired of waiting.

im tired of being an outsider.

im just fucking tired.

and my kids??? they deserve fucking better.



anyone got advice???? whatcha think????

some people should NOT be allowed to breed

so i have 2 kids right... love them to pieces, they are absolutely my life.

they both have the same dad.

dad (aka sperm donor) is a LOOOOOSER.... i myself was a total fucking moron for ever getting involved, but since i have beautiful babies, we'll just move right on past that...

so anyhoo.....

my babies are 9.5 and 4. and 1.5 years ago sperm donor decided to sign off his rights on the kids. seriously. i had to have a family member "adopt" them so that this POS could walk away free and clear....

yea.

so much the better for us, honestly, but still... who DOES that???

oh, and the best part? yea, he has 3 kids older than my two, and another one YOUNGER.

yeeeeeeeeaaaaaaaaaa....

i just found out about that #6 (for those not counting...) the other day, thru the wonderful world of myspace...

i was floored. though, not really surprised. now, i just totally realize that it really WAS all about the money and the skank bitch he was cheating on me with.

sweet right???

oh well, eventually the karma train will run his ass the hell over, and i will sit back and laugh...